Feelings

This is all new to me. I normally just  bottle everything up and never let it out.  Lately I have been trying something new, getting my feelings out and trying to work them out  right away.  So sorry if I sound like a ranting maniac ,  I'm new to this ! So back on track.  I have realized that bottle  everything up  is the worst  you can do. The tops gotta blow sometimes and it's usually at the worst time ever. And when it happens I hear myself say the dumbest stuff possible, I can't even believe I say some of the things I did. I'm normally pretty calm and collected. 

 But lately it just spews out uncontrollably,  worst  feeling ever after I'm done . I know I didn't mean what I said , it happens at the worst point and gets taken the wrong way.