Feeling very tired these days
Sense the Fourth of July I have felt so tired for some reason. Really don't know why, no energy or desire. Yesterday I lay back down abt. 10:30, after waking up around 8:30 a.m., and slept till almost 5:30,I was so disgusted with myself for wasting the day like that!! I told one of my boys abt. that and he said that my body must have needed the rest and to not feel bad abt. it. Then again today I had a long nap and woke up at 9p.m.. I remember dreaming abt. my husband, first time sense he died, but it wasn't a good dream. I was at my Dr.'s office and the Dr. had found a bump near my left upper chest and he was doing a test on me. My husband was there and that is abt. all I remember except I felt like it wasn't a good result. I know he spoke to me but I have no idea what he said, I felt like maybe I would join him before long. Crazy damn dream, why did I dream such crap after all that I have been thru with his illness. Maybe I am afraid that I will die too, ? My husband didn't look old and worn-down in my dream. I wish it had made more sense, but that;s usually how my dreams are. Strange because I seldom dream, or remember them if I do. Even my darn computer won't leave the font size where I had set it ! !!! So I will make do with being grateful that at least it still works at all. It was passed down to me from two of my children who used it very hard for college. But anyway, I hope that if I MUST dream abt. me and my husband again that he will explain THIS dream to me !lol I think the weather effects me, it's been hot and so humid and it's supposed to rain tonite, it makes my arthritis worse and apparently makes me want to sleep. I think I need to get out more than I do and do things with my two older grandchildren. Ella, she's almost 10 yrs. old. We plan to go get our nails done Wednesday, with my oldest son's x-fieonce(sp)?. So sad they split up, I really do like her, but my son lost his first wife in an auto accident 15 yrs. ago. He married again, long enough to get Caden and Ella and his second wife divorced him. To tell u how bad a "mom" she was, HE got custody of the children and that seldom happens in this state. She broke Court orders like they didn't apply to her. Such a narcisstic person with no real feelings for anyone. Well, I did say it was a "rambling" post!!
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Ruthann, I too have been so tired and sad since the fourth. I spent all day Sunday crying and sleeping and today, Monday wasn\'t much better! Just can\'t seem to make sense of anything or find a reason for anything. Just have to give it time I guess. Hang in there sister, I am here for you, Hugs, Michele
Hi dear Ruthann,
Michelle you too, this grief tiredness comes and goes for me. I know both you ladies are newbies (for want of a better word). But even for me, at a few days over a year, I still get the lie down moments.
Thankfully they don\'t last long. I have been told from many of our family here,
They still have those times, too. If it goes on for too long, it\'s a good idea to get a physical.....at this pint, just rest as you need when you can.
You are both dealing with a lot of extras too, so give yourselves time......
You are in my thoughts.
Hugs......Sandra