Feeling very depressed
I'm feeling very down today. I was feeling okay earlier but tonight I am just feeling very defeated. I worked for a few hours, I don't like my job (Home Depot) and my housemate drives me nuts sometimes.
she is nice, she's driven me around when I needed a ride (I don't have a car) Otherwise I take metro.
But she LOVES playing Bridge. I didn't know that people still played Bridge. She belongs to two groups. One that meets on Sun a month and the other every other Tues. When she is not playing with her groups she will sit most of the day and shuffle her cards and lay out the cards on the kitchen table. She is retired so this is what she is into.
I don't say anything, but after a while that sound of shuffling gets to me. I don't let on that it does. I figured I just have to grin and bear it. It's not the worst thing that could happen. But it just added to my foul mood.
She has a calendar book that she writes what she plans to do, if she has appts or bridge games. To do lists.
She keeps asking me if I'm working, I don't have a set schedule. Except I have Thurs and Sats. But sometimes they will let me have other days off. Like they gave me this past Sun off. Usually I am working on Sun. Tonight she asked me if I'm working tomorrow and Fri. So I said yes. But it annoys me, why do I need to tell her when I'm working. I don't bother her when I'm here. I usually stay up in my room during the day. I like to watch TV in the evening.
I'm just feeling so frustrated and down on myself. I just wish I could be 'normal' whatever that is
she is nice, she's driven me around when I needed a ride (I don't have a car) Otherwise I take metro.
But she LOVES playing Bridge. I didn't know that people still played Bridge. She belongs to two groups. One that meets on Sun a month and the other every other Tues. When she is not playing with her groups she will sit most of the day and shuffle her cards and lay out the cards on the kitchen table. She is retired so this is what she is into.
I don't say anything, but after a while that sound of shuffling gets to me. I don't let on that it does. I figured I just have to grin and bear it. It's not the worst thing that could happen. But it just added to my foul mood.
She has a calendar book that she writes what she plans to do, if she has appts or bridge games. To do lists.
She keeps asking me if I'm working, I don't have a set schedule. Except I have Thurs and Sats. But sometimes they will let me have other days off. Like they gave me this past Sun off. Usually I am working on Sun. Tonight she asked me if I'm working tomorrow and Fri. So I said yes. But it annoys me, why do I need to tell her when I'm working. I don't bother her when I'm here. I usually stay up in my room during the day. I like to watch TV in the evening.
I'm just feeling so frustrated and down on myself. I just wish I could be 'normal' whatever that is
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Sometimes I feel more depressed when I am tired. Perhaps that is why you are feeling down this evening. I liked the way you described your roommate. She sounds like she would make an interesting character in a novel, the way she sits and shuffles the cards and lives for playing Bridge. I hope today will be better for you, Lily. Hugs!
Hi Linda, *hugs* i\'m here for you, my dear friend. i\'m so sorry, things haven\'t been well, and that it\'s affected your spirit. i know things can make us feel down, and feel like we are run down, with every day things, that we need to take some time, to be gentle and caring to ourselves. i know you have been through a lot, and i am very proud of you, for keeping strong : )You never give up, and you keep on keeping on :)
i was doing some decorating, here in my halloween town, and i have my cool spider grow kit you gave me :) it\'s awesome, and i can\'t wait to put it in a vase, and in water, for halloween season :) it\'s gonna be awesome :)
be sure to be gentle, and caring for yourself, and take good care, as a new season is coming, take things, one day at a time :) we care about you friend :) sending encouragement, and positive energy to you :)
Hi dear Lilly, we care about you. I would also not like the question of when I am going to work. I know how difficult it is to do things with depression. I have had it since 18 and still dealing with it. Gentle hugs for you.