Feeling sorry for myself
Ok I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself today. I sat and cried for 45 minutes this morning. I kept thinking about all the restrictions that have been placed on me and what I'm going to have to do now to lead a semi-normal life. I'm not sure if I'm up to the task or if I even want to be. I know its a pity party but I'm so sick of being sick. I went in today for my 3rd steroid injection in my back. The first one worked great until I pulled something or tore the what ever it is that is torn in my back worse. The second shot did absolutely nothing and the verdict is still out on the 3rd shot. These are steroid injections that are suppose to help relieve the inflamation. My pharmacist did replace my blood pressure medication with the right stuff and the right dose so at least my heart rate is down below 100 and my blood pressure is returning to a semi normal number. tonight its 145/102. I'm sure it will get better by tomorrow. Hope all is well with my friends here at DS. Love to you all
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Sadly I know exactly what you\'re going through. I used to be a healthy, vibrant, active young person, and suddenly I\'ve been catapulted into feeling completely incapacitated and frustrated at the way my life has changed. I mostly hold it together by realizing how much worse it could be, but today was a really low day for me, too.
I know that I am new here but I just want to tell you both that I care about how you are feeling and being a PE sister so to speak I understand your frustrations .Some days are diamonds and some days are stones :-)
Its kinda like a roller coaster ride isnt it ? Some days I feel o.k. or am more easily able to push my fears to the side especially if I am extra busy .The there are those break through moments or hours of fear,doubt,pain and just being sick and tired of it all .
It will all be o.k....God is good and knows every part of you and understands .I hope I dont offend anyone but I will pray for you .
Thank you friends and all prayers are always appreciated