Feeling so tired...

I been feeling so tired of late, its been extremely emotional for me the last couple of days... today its the 2 month anniversary since I found out my angel had left and tomorrow the 2 month aniversary since they took her away. How time flies...
 I think I miss her every day more and more, All I dream about is having her back and the need to get pregnant is becoming all consuming. Every time I have to pee on one of the OPK sticks my heart just sinks, I keep thinking I should be pregnant right now, not peeing on sticks! it all seems so unfair...
 I strongly believe in reincarnation and I guess I am hoping against hope that she will come back, in another body perhaps, but the same little soul. At times it feels like that is the only thing getting me through the endless days.
My little baby, will you ever come back to me? I don't think I could live the rest of my life without you. I really hope you can hear me and that you know how loved you are and how I am waiting day after day to have you once again safe with me. My darling I wish you could understand my pain, the hole in my heart that you left  when you went away. Please my angel come back soon o.k? until that day I will miss you more and more.