Feeling so Much Better.

I am feeling much better now. Father's Day wasn't the best, still good. While going shopping, a young man had asked me if I was a father and I said yes. He had paid for the food I had brought out of his pocket and I thanked him for it. That really felt good and I teared up. This was the first time in a long time that anyone had done something good for me. The past 3 weeks has been hard for me. It hurt like hell. For a week, I didn't workout or shave at all. I even went to sleep late. That is where my behavioral patterns had started 12 years ago. I have decided to change them and take care of myself. I had shaved, went to workout today, and started to update my resume. 

It was a tough transition for the past 3 weeks. Feeling better about myself. At my former job; I was worked like a dog and only taken a break when it was lunch. I had to give myself a lunch break. Now I am beginning to feel like myself again for the first time in a long time and a year. All I can do is take it one day at a time. No need to rush the process because it will lead up to disappointment and failure. Who needs to go through that again? 

Today is truly a new beginning and the first time in my life that I am feeling good about myself and enjoy life. Why waste my time on a job that robs you of your life? That isn't living, that's exsisting. Right now, I am going to enjoy walking in the sun and do the things I enjoy doing. I am not sad that I am not working right now; This is a reset for me and believe that I will have a new job in no time. For now, just enjoy being and appreciating myself.