feeling? really hurt

So I went to Bible study tonight and saw one of my friends I haven't seen for awhile. She knows about my ED and that I have been in treatment and doing after care. I have had a few relapses and just started seeing my nutritionist again. She's got me started on a meal plan again. I had a prayer request for faith and trusting that God will provide. I have been struggling financiallly I know like everyone else. Can't afford to go to The Center to see my nutritionist, doctor, ED groups or my councilor who I have been really working on deep issues with lately. I can hardly afford food right now and thats a struggle in itself to not just say forget it and not even try to make it work to buy food.But what really hurt was when I told her I couldn't afford to go to The Center she said well maybe that's a good nthing to force you to stand on your own and not expect everyone there to fix your problems. I don't even know how to take that. Right now I just feel like crap