Feeling really down..

It's been 2 weeks since she left me. The wounds are still fresh, I can see her everywhere I go,..I don't know if I could meet anyone like her anymore. She was just so kind, and..perfect.
I don't understand why she had to leave. But she did. I'm trying to be strong..but it's so hard to do coz' I've lost interest in life...My head keeps telling me 'hang on just for one more day.' so that's what I do. Taking it one day at a time.

I wish the pain could just stop. A part of me wants to find somebody else, someone who's as nice and kind as her, someone who would want to stay and fight for our relationship. Another part of me is afraid to love again. Afraid to give it all my heart and be left disappointed, hurt and alone.

I don't know what to do. I really don't know what to do with my life. It seems to me it doesn't really matter whether I exist or not. I'm just so tired..