Feeling majorly depressed.
Feeling so depressed with this constant loneliness is taking everything out of me. Just struggling so much with all this. I need her so much! I wonder if she will want to get together soon I asked in one of my messages to her so ill have to see what she says. Every part of me is filled with so much hurt just from everything. I need her. I'm Not mad cuz she didn't answer yet cuz when she does answer worried about how her response will be to me. I miss her so much. Yup I turned out all screwed up.
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I\'m sorry you are feeling down right now. Is there any particular reason you need her other than to fill your lonliness? Anything in particular you want to talk to her about other than to be reassured that your friendship with her is still OK? Does she seem like the kind of person who would be upset with you and not tell you? I know some people are like that, but most people I have encountered will take some space and then tell the person that they are upset. It\'s something I, myself, am working on.
I still think that finding something away from your friend would be helpful for you. I see how your mood seems from your journals to revolve around her.
I wish the best for you and your friend. Hope you feel better and find a way to help yourself with this insecurity within your friendship. Good luck!
I was going to ask the same thing. What is the reason you need her so much? Many people can\'t handle that much intensity - and I know this because I was that way with someone myself, when I was in a more needy state of mind and at a different place in life. I constantly feared abandonment and rejection. I latched on to this person and they did not want that, it wasn\'t healthy for either of us and we are no longer friends, I am sorry to say. I understand now where she was coming from, but back then it just hurt. I am in a lot healthier place now. I still have my fears and insecurities but I work on them myself and don\'t impose them on others. It creates more equal friendships. I agree with Apieceofmyheart, you need to find other things to balance out your life - things just for you. It will do you a world of good to work on yourself and not worry about others.