Feeling lost, alone and misunderstood

I am facing the truth today. I have major anxiety and it is ruining my life. I feel I cannot go on at times. Everyone thinks I am crazy and not suffering. My husband does not want to hear it. Says I need to get it together. I would if I could! I am trying to figure out why this is happening to me. I have been a victim of abuse from a young age with my parents, then in my teen years I was raped. I have been married to abusers as well. I have had cancer and came through that and many difficult life events. I feel I can't win against this. I have a Dr. appointment tomorrow to see about meds maybe helping. I need to be here with others suffering as I am. I pray I find relief, answers and help. Bless you all and feel my love and understanding with all you are experiencing as well. No one understands more that I do... Thank you for this group...