Feeling Lonely

I've had moments where I feel lonely but nothing like what I've felt today. Everywhere I look there are reminders of him and it hurts I sleep on his side of the bed just so I can feel close to him. Looking at pictures of him makes me cry. I look at the desk he built me and everything he put up like the shelves and pictures and signs and all I can think of is him and how I feel like I took him for granted. I feel like I'm forgetting things about him, how he looked how he sounded and his touch. I hate feeling alone and being alone. I come home and its just me and the dogs. I miss him making me mad and getting me to smile at the same time. I believe that he drove me crazy just because he could and I miss all of that and having someone to spend my days with. I'm tired of not being able to sleep, I always slept so much better with him beside me, especially when he held me which wasn't too often because one of our dogs had to be in between us.