Feeling Lonely

I am feeling so Lonely & Depressed. I don't know who I am or where I begin. I was never taugh how to be Me. How to Love Myself & I did not & still don't know what True Love is or was. The Only Love I learned is a Molesters Love & A Father Abusers Love ( Physical, Mental, Emotional & Spiritual Abuse ). Now at My Age I have to teach Myself what Those lessons are.
It will be a Tough Journey but this is a Journey I have to take.