feeling like shit lately

i have been depressed lately. and also. i had a psychic vision (yes psychics are real, i'm not going to argue this, it's true) that my boyfriend cheated on me...not in real life...just, psychically. i couldn't tell my mom this cuz she thinks i'm a schiz. and had me committed lots and doesn't believe me, or refuses to. i don't care just...i came on here cuz i needed to talk about this.
i'm just really upset. i couldn't go in to my acting class (that he's in) monday OR wednesday this week...so i haven't seen him since last week and i've been faking sick.
i miss him.
but i'm so upset at the same time.
i just want to see happy things in my head, you know? ...or nothing at all, even...you know?
thanks for listening,
Ellyn