Feeling like crap
So I havn't wrote a journal entry for a while. During that itme, I have been bping and using Ipecac, and freaking killing myself. Yesterday, I was sick for 6 hours from the stuff. I mean sick. I couldn't move, I couldn't eat anything and keep it down. My heart was pounding. I got into another fight with my husband because he just doesn't get it. He went in the bathroom again while I was purging and freaking stared at me the whole time. It made me so mad. I was glad then that I used Ipecac because him being there made me nervous and it was easier for me to get rid of the food. Everytime I look at him, my anxiety level goes up and I am starting to realize he might be part of the problem. Today I can't BP. I just can't. I know that I am getting closer and closer to the end of the rope. I can't sleep anymore and I can'r function. I know I probably wont bp today, but what about tomorrow? How to I stop myself?
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I am so sorry your heart is hurting. I know how hard this all must be for you. No fun.
I am here for you if you need a friend to talk to! I am sending you warm wishes and a BIG hug to help you through. Hang in there.
Please send a message if you need to talk. As soon as you feel the need send a message and we can talk.
Hang in there you CAN do it
please steer clear of ipecac its so dangerous you can die from it
oh babe, i\'m so sorry you\'ve been having so much trouble *big hugs*
ipecac is really dangerous, but you know that, and I know that you want to use it and no one will change your mind..
Anyway I don\'t really know what my point is, just be careful hun!! I don\'t want you to get hurt
Em xoxo