FEELING KINDA DOWN, BUT THIS TO SHALL PASS!
WELL, WE DID HAVE OUR DAY WITH THE MEDIA, BUT I DON'T THINK THAT IT IS GOING TO CHANGE A THING, AT LEAST NOT FOR THE IMMEDIATE FUTURE!! BUT, WE STILL HAVE OUR PETITIONS THAT ARE GOING TO REACH THE HEALTH MINISTER!! KEEPING FINGERS CROSSED! I HAVE SLOWED DOWN ALOT SINCE ALL OF THIS RUNNING AROUND FOR ALL THE WORK I HAD BEEN GIVING, ALL MY ENERGY, AND LIMITED BRAIN USE!! LOL SLOWLY GETTING BACK INTO MY ROUTINE OF MY DAILY CHORES AND ERRANDS I USUALLY DO. I AM HAVING MORE PROBLEMS WITH MY DAUGHTER, WHICH HAS OUR TWO GRANDCHILDREN! WELL, SHE HAS A MAD ON AGAIN THIS YEAR STARTED TOWARDS THE END OF JUNE. SOME LITTLE THING HAS PISSED HER OFF AGAIN, SO HERE WE GO NOT ABLE TO SEE OUR PRECIOUS GRANDCHILDREN AGAIN!! FOR HOW LONG NOW?? WELL, WE NEVER KNOW?? LAST TIME IT WAS FOR A YEAR, AND GOD WAS THAT A LONG YEAR TO MISS OUR LITTLE GRANDKIDS, AND OF COURSE I DID MISS MY DAUGHTER ALSO!! THIS TIME IT SEEMS DIFFERENT AS SHE MY DAUGHTER, WELL SHE SAYS SHE NEVER, EVERY WANTS TO SEE ME OR MY HUSBAND EVER AGAIN!! OH, WHAT THE HECK DID WE DO NOW??? WE REALLY DON'T KNOW, SHE JUST GETS THESE MAD ONS FOR SOME LITTLE REASON, AND TAKES IT TO THE HIGHEST LEVEL THAT SHE CAN TAKE IT!! OH, I AM SOOO TIRED TO THIS BULLSHIT!! IT IS WEARING ON ME AND MY LOVING HUSBAND WE JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE???? SHE HAS NOW MOVED AND DOESN'T WANT US TO KNOW HER PH.# AND HER ADDRESS EITHER! AND OF COURSE WE CAN'T HAVE ANY CONTACT WITH OUR PRECIOUS GRANDKIDS EITHER!! EVEN WHEN MY OWN MOTHER WATCHES THEM (OUR GRANDKIDS) WELL SHE HAS STRICT RULES THAT MY DAUGHTER (CRYSTAL) HAS PUT ON HER ALSO!! SHE IS NOT TO LET US PHONE OVER THERE AND TALK TO OUR GRANDKIDS UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, AND OF COURSE MY MOM DOES OBEY HER WISHES!! WELL, I GUESS WHAT CAN SHE DO?? BUT, IT DOES CRUSH ME WHEN I CAN'T EVEN GO OVER TO MY MOM'S ANYWAY, DUE TO THE BITCH OF A SISTER OF MINE THAT HAS LIVED WITH HER SINCE MY STEP-DAD HAS PASSED AWAY NOW FOR 2 AND 1/2 YRS. SO, SHE MY SISTER, RUNS THAT HOUSEHOLD, HA!! WHAT A DAMN JOKE! IT SEEMS LIKE THEY ARE TRYING TO GET EVERYONE AGAINST US! AND WE HAVE DONE NOTHING AT ALL TO DESERVE ALL OF THIS PATHETIC BULLSHIT!! IT DOES CUT TO THE HEART I TELL YOU! MY OTHER DAUGHTER JUST GOT HER RIGHTS BACK TO SEE HER AGAIN AND OF COURSE TO SEE HER NEICE AND NEPHEW, SO SHE HAS TO WALK ON EGG SHELLS NOW AS TO NOT SET OFF MY DAUGHTER, THAT DOES TAKE HER MOTHERLY WAYS WAY TOOO THE EXTREME!! WE DO KNOW THAT OUR GRANDKIDS ARE FORBIDDEN TO EVEN MENTION OUR NAMES AT ALL TO THERE MOTHER, MY DAUGHTER!!! SHIT, YOU THINK WE MIGHT OF KILLED SOMEONE OR SOMETHING THE WAY THAT WE ARE BEING TREATED!! I AM SOOO ASHAMED OF HER AND HER WAYS THAT I AM JUST ABOUT READY TO DISOWN HER, BUT I DON'T THINK THAT WOULD BE A GOOD THING ALSO, AS THEN SHE WOULD TELL OUR GRANDCHILDREN THAT IT WAS US THAT BANNED HER FROM SEEING THE GRANDKIDS! EXCEPT THAT SHE HAS TOLD THEM THEY WILL NEVER SEE US AGAIN!! WHAT KIND OF BULLSHIT IS THAT TO TELL SMALL CHILDREN!! I JUST DON;T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS SHIT I CAN TAKE!! ANYWAY, WE ARE DESPERATELY DECIDING TO MOVE TO VANCOUVER, B.C. THIS NEXT SUMMER, AS WHAT DO WE HAVE TO KEEP US HERE NOW?? WELL, I DO HAVE MY OTHER PRECIOUS DAUGTHER THAT LOVES ME DEARLY AND WOULD TERRIBLY MISS ME AND MY HUSBAND TERRY AND OF COURSE WE WOULD MISS HER SOOO VERY MUCH ALSO!!! BUT, YOU CAN'T PLEASE EVERYONE CAN YOU?? NO, WE HAVE TO DO WHAT IS NOW IN OUR BEST INTEREST AND LIVE FOR US NOT FOR A DREAM THAT WE MAY SEE OUR GRANDCHILDREN AGAIN ONE HAPPY DAY, WHO KNOWS IF THAT DAY WILL EVER COME AGAIN?? AND IF IT DID WE WOULD REALLY HAVE TO JUMP TO HER REQUEST FOR EVERYTHING SO NOT TO UPSET HER AGAIN SO THAT SHE WOULD DO THIS ALL OVER AGAIN!! THIS HAS HAPPENED TO US A FEW YEARS AGO ALREADY, AND SHE DID NOT LET US SEE THE GRANDKIDS FOR OVER A YEAR!! CAN YOU IMAGINE??? WE ARE NOT MEAN, CRUEL, MONSTERS, OR TREAT THEM BADLY, OR ABUSE THEM!!!!!!! I JUST DON'T GET IT WHY SHE IS SOOOO ANGRY INSIDE WHICH WE HAVE TALKED ALOT ABOUT HER UPBRINGING AND WHICH I DID DO THE VERY BEST THAT I COULD OF DONE IN THE PREDICAMENT THAT I WAS IN MARRYING THERE FATHER, A DRUNK AND A CHILD WHICH HE STILL IS, AND THEN MY 2ND HUSBAND WHICH WAS A CREEP AND DID TOUCH MY DAUGHTER IN INAPPROPRIATE WAYS, WHICH I DID FIND OUT AND DEALT WITH IT TO MY UTMOST ATTENTION AND EVERYTHING I HAD TO DO TO FIGHT WITH THIS ISSUE. AND OF COURSE ALL OF THE COUNSELLING OH, JUST EVERYTHING HAS JUST GOTTEN TO THE POINT THAT I DON'T THINK I CAN TAKE IT ALL ANYMORE, I AM JUST TOOO SICK FOR ALL OF THIS GARBAGE IN MY LIFE!! I HAVE TO START TAKING BETTER CARE OF ME, AND NO WONDER I HAVE SEVERE DEBILITATING PAIN ON A 24/7 DAILY BASIS, AND NOW NOT ABLE TO SLEEP EVER!! ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT IS DID THE UTMOST BEST THAT I COULD HAVE DONE FOR ONE HUMAN BEING I AM NOT A BAD PERSON AND EITHER IS MY LOVING HUSBAND! HAS ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS INSANE STUFF GO ON IN THERE LIVES ALSO?? I WOULD LOVE TO HEAR YOUR STORY OF HOW OUR ADULT CHILDREN TURNING AGAINST US AND TRYING TO RUIN US!!! SORRY TO RANT BUT I HAVE KEPT THIS IN FOR WAY TOOO LONG AND I AM TRYING TO GET PAST THIS AND LIVE A MUCH MORE HEALTHY LIFE FOR MYSELF AND MY HUSBAND I DEARLY LOVE AND HE LOVES ME THANK GOD FOR HIM IN MY LIFE!! WELL, JUST A FEW THINGS THAT ARE GOING ON IN MY BORING LITTLE LIFE HA HA!! EXTREME STRESS AND SOOO TERRIBLY TIRED OF IT ALL, I WANT TO HIBERNATE FOR THE WINTER I THINK REALLY!THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ THIS RAMBLING ON STORY OF BREAKING HEARTS AND LOSS OF SOOO MANY GOOD MEMORIES THAT COULD HAVE BEEN!!
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My oldest son gets mad at us now and then and uses the kids as a device against us too. Right now we are on good terms. But I have to say is underneath this anger problem is a depressive disorder. Just do what you said, Plan for your own life and keep putting yourself first. I would also try to keep alert of any kind of mental state your daughter is in. Hoping that there doesn\'t need outside help to get her to run her kids life right? I wonder if you call an agency to talk about this? It might not hurt to talk. But I know if you take any action against your daughter for being unstable she would never forgive you for that too. But I would only do this if it severely effects the children. You know children are very wise inside. They will remember the wonderful visits with you and will be eager to look you up and give you a call regardless what mom says as they get older. Try not to worry about the disorder she causes. Cultivate things in your life that you know will flourish and be happy within. That\'s about how I had to cope with things. You have to realize too that it isn\'t a crime to be a basket case day in and day out. Poor kids!