Feeling Hurt and Betrayed

Saturday, June 27, 2009 - 9:50 AM Nothing seems to be going quite right this week. It has been difficult for me to sleep at night, and when this happens, it seems to throw the whole following day out of whack.   This morning was a continuation of the whole lousy week. One of my CNA's who I trust the most, informed me that she was going to quit working with me one hour in the mornings and one hour at night on the weekends. I was not even out of bed yet when I got this news.   The unexpected news was upsetting, and made me somewhat angry. This person had quit last spring for four months, and then asked me to take her back when things did not go right for her after moving to another city and state. Because I liked, and trusted, her I said that she could work for me again.   I have tried overlooking the fact that on several mornings and nights she has failed to show up without letting me know in advance that she would not be here. Fortunately, I have always had a second person working for me at the same time.   Maybe I was wrong thinking she was a responsible person. If so, part of the blame, if any, rests with me. I think it goes far deeper than that. I do not think she has reached the age, or maturity, of a person who knows the true meaning of loyalty.   As long as I am with the home healthcare agency, I will always be able to get a replacement for someone who quits. I guess the bottom line is that I now feel as though I have lost a sense of safety and security.   It is not the first time I have gone through something like this. It has happened before, and I am sure it will happen again. Sooner or later, a person gets tired of helping someone else only to be betrayed by that person.