feeling hopeless and tired
Today I am tired. I am angry too. My husband and I had conflict. I am sure it is affecting my health. So I am down because of my problems with him. Then I am uncomfortable all night. I had to pee 5 times last night. I felt like I did not sleep. My body is tight and I am so slow. I was feeling hopeless this a.m.. I got so discourage. Every where I look I see people moving. I want to move. I want to ice skate, run, go grocery shopping and have the energy to carry them in, I want to Christmas shop too. It took me 3 hours to get three tasks done the other day that used to take 1/2 that time. My husband just stand there with his hands in his pocket when I am afraid and hurting. I am crying and he has no idea what to do. He just looks like it is an inconvenience to him that I feel crappy. Like there goes his day. How could he not think to hug me, pray for me, reassure me? I just get so mad. I feel alone some days. I feel like it is all too hard today.