Feeling hopeful

Hi Everyone,
Since I can't sleep, thought I'd give you an update...My second IVF attempt was cancelled AGAIN due to the fact that my follicles hadn't grown much after a week of taking the maximum dosage of stims.  I wasn't surprised when the RE nurse called to tell me and took it better than the first cancelled attempt.  My doctor ended up calling me the following night to check up on me but I wasn't in the mood to talk to him.  I think at that point, it hit me and my emotions got the best of me.  So he called the flwg night and we talked about what happened.  It was the conversation that I had dreaded.  This protocol was pretty much it and if we didn't get pregnant, there wasn't anything else that he could do soooooo..... I told him that I wanted to try again but I wanted to lose as much weight as I possibly could between now and the end of summer so that we could try again.  The last thing I want is to look back and say that I didn't try everything.  I keep reading and hearing that a woman's body weight has everything to do with getting pregnant and when I mentioned again to my RE, he said that he agreed for me to lose the weight.   I could not believe my ears.  He went on to say that literature states that having a normal body weight increases a woman's chance of getting pregnant.  I was flabbergasted to say the least.  I had asked him point blank last summer about my weight and he flat out told me that my weight had nothing to do with me not getting pregnant.  Should I have worded it differently?  I'm like, WTF??  I was so pissed...  I should've went with my gut and started losing weight last year.  I just felt like I wasted time.  I can't turn back the hands of time so I've decided to seriously work on losing weight.  We're also looking into foster care/adoption info also simultaneously too.  Still trying to remain positive but need to be realistic too.  I also found a Christian online support group as I was looking for adoption info that was very encouraging.  If you guys are interested, the website is:  www.bethany.org
Hope that you all had a nice Easter!  Take care and God Bless you all!
 
Teresa (Fiorianna)