Feeling hopeful

Hi Everyone,
Since I can't sleep, thought I'd give you an update...My second IVF attempt was cancelled AGAIN due to the fact that my follicles hadn't grown much after a week of taking the maximum dosage of stims.  I wasn't surprised when the RE nurse called to tell me and took it better than the first cancelled attempt.  My doctor ended up calling me the following night to check up on me but I wasn't in the mood to talk to him.  I think at that point, it hit me and my emotions got the best of me.  So he called the flwg night and we talked about what happened.  It was the conversation that I had dreaded.  This protocol was pretty much it and if we didn't get pregnant, there wasn't anything else that he could do soooooo..... I told him that I wanted to try again but I wanted to lose as much weight as I possibly could between now and the end of summer so that we could try again.  The last thing I want is to look back and say that I didn't try everything.  I keep reading and hearing that a woman's body weight has everything to do with getting pregnant and when I mentioned again to my RE, he said that he agreed for me to lose the weight.   I could not believe my ears.  He went on to say that literature states that having a normal body weight increases a woman's chance of getting pregnant.  I was flabbergasted to say the least.  I had asked him point blank last summer about my weight and he flat out told me that my weight had nothing to do with me not getting pregnant.  Should I have worded it differently?  I'm like, WTF??  I was so pissed...  I should've went with my gut and started losing weight last year.  I just felt like I wasted time.  I can't turn back the hands of time so I've decided to seriously work on losing weight.  We're also looking into foster care/adoption info also simultaneously too.  Still trying to remain positive but need to be realistic too.  I also found a Christian online support group as I was looking for adoption info that was very encouraging.  If you guys are interested, the website is:  www.bethany.org
Hope that you all had a nice Easter!  Take care and God Bless you all!
 
Teresa (Fiorianna)

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi Teresa,
Sorry to hear about your cancelled cycle again. Life just doesn\'t seem fair sometimes. I hope things do work out for you! Hugs and prayers always....
deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so sorry that your cycle was cancelled. Good luck with the upcoming weight loss journey as well as the foster/adopt journey. I was a foster mom to a wonderful little boy who my whole world revolved around for a year and a half and my life is so much better having had him. I wish you the same joy!
nanda1979
nanda1979

So sorry to hear about your canceled cycle. I will keep you in my prayers for this new hopeful journey. Good luck. I pray you get your wish.
fiorianna
fiorianna

Thank you ladies for your support! I wouldn\'t know how I could do without it! :)
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi! I am so sorry that your cycle was cancelled. I have had a terrible time myself. I am 41 now and we are going to see another RE next Monday. Have you sought out a 2nd opinion? what was your med protocol? Loosing weight will benefit you in many ways. I am on that same plan. I have lost 6 lbs so far. I love my RE but I feel I need to get fresh eyes on my case. I just hope I did not blow all my chances by not doing this sooner. I wish you the best of luck and I am here to support you. I will pray for both of us.
fiorianna
fiorianna

Hi St Gerard, thank you for your support and prayers. I admire your strength and courage. I felt so sad for you. I was just sharing your good news with my husband and then telling him about the bad news days later. Just couldn\'t believe it. I love my RE too mainly because of his bedside manners. I had a crappy doctor and I had switched to my current one. But now after two cancelled cycles, I\'m starting to have doubts about him. My husband brought up a good point though. It\'s not his fault that my ovaries aren\'t responding to the drugs but what i don\'t understand is that last summer, they were with less dosage. Another question to ask him I guess. The med protocol for this cycle was taking 10 units of Lupron Flare morning and night for two days, then on the 3rd day and thereafter adding the Gonal F (225 units) mixed with the Menopur twice a day, once in the morning, and once at night. You would think after one week, something would have grown but barely nothing. Last summer I was on Follistim which seemed to be working okay and then I switched to Gonal F and was on that for several cycles. I asked to be switched back to the Follistim thinking I would have luck but for some reason, the pen didn\'t seem like it was working so just to be sure that I was getting enough meds, I would dial up again. I don\'t know...maybe I was giving myself double the meds. Who knows...it didn\'t get me anywhere though. Just frustrating...I try to stay positive but it\'s very easy to get down. I swear (I know I shouldn\'t swear) but I hear about a new pregnancy every day and it breaks my heart. Just tonight, I heard about my younger cousin expecting her second child. I\'m happy for people but it just breaks my heart every single time.
fiorianna
fiorianna

Hi St Gerard, thank you for your support and prayers. I admire your strength and courage. I felt so sad for you. I was just sharing your good news with my husband and then telling him about the bad news days later. Just couldn\'t believe it. I love my RE too mainly because of his bedside manners. I had a crappy doctor and I had switched to my current one. But now after two cancelled cycles, I\'m starting to have doubts about him. My husband brought up a good point though. It\'s not his fault that my ovaries aren\'t responding to the drugs but what i don\'t understand is that last summer, they were with less dosage. Another question to ask him I guess. The med protocol for this cycle was taking 10 units of Lupron Flare morning and night for two days, then on the 3rd day and thereafter adding the Gonal F (225 units) mixed with the Menopur twice a day, once in the morning, and once at night. You would think after one week, something would have grown but barely nothing. Last summer I was on Follistim which seemed to be working okay and then I switched to Gonal F and was on that for several cycles. I asked to be switched back to the Follistim thinking I would have luck but for some reason, the pen didn\'t seem like it was working so just to be sure that I was getting enough meds, I would dial up again. I don\'t know...maybe I was giving myself double the meds. Who knows...it didn\'t get me anywhere though. Just frustrating...I try to stay positive but it\'s very easy to get down. I swear (I know I shouldn\'t swear) but I hear about a new pregnancy every day and it breaks my heart. Just tonight, I heard about my younger cousin expecting her second child. I\'m happy for people but it just breaks my heart every single time.
fiorianna
fiorianna

Hi St Gerard, thank you for your support and prayers. I admire your strength and courage. I felt so sad for you. I was just sharing your good news with my husband and then telling him about the bad news days later. Just couldn\'t believe it. I love my RE too mainly because of his bedside manners. I had a crappy doctor and I had switched to my current one. But now after two cancelled cycles, I\'m starting to have doubts about him. My husband brought up a good point though. It\'s not his fault that my ovaries aren\'t responding to the drugs but what i don\'t understand is that last summer, they were with less dosage. Another question to ask him I guess. The med protocol for this cycle was taking 10 units of Lupron Flare morning and night for two days, then on the 3rd day and thereafter adding the Gonal F (225 units) mixed with the Menopur twice a day, once in the morning, and once at night. You would think after one week, something would have grown but barely nothing. Last summer I was on Follistim which seemed to be working okay and then I switched to Gonal F and was on that for several cycles. I asked to be switched back to the Follistim thinking I would have luck but for some reason, the pen didn\'t seem like it was working so just to be sure that I was getting enough meds, I would dial up again. I don\'t know...maybe I was giving myself double the meds. Who knows...it didn\'t get me anywhere though. Just frustrating...I try to stay positive but it\'s very easy to get down. I swear (I know I shouldn\'t swear) but I hear about a new pregnancy every day and it breaks my heart. Just tonight, I heard about my younger cousin expecting her second child. I\'m happy for people but it just breaks my heart every single time.
fiorianna
fiorianna

Hi St Gerard, thank you for your support and prayers. I admire your strength and courage. I felt so sad for you. I was just sharing your good news with my husband and then telling him about the bad news days later. Just couldn\'t believe it. I love my RE too mainly because of his bedside manners. I had a crappy doctor and I had switched to my current one. But now after two cancelled cycles, I\'m starting to have doubts about him. My husband brought up a good point though. It\'s not his fault that my ovaries aren\'t responding to the drugs but what i don\'t understand is that last summer, they were with less dosage. Another question to ask him I guess. The med protocol for this cycle was taking 10 units of Lupron Flare morning and night for two days, then on the 3rd day and thereafter adding the Gonal F (225 units) mixed with the Menopur twice a day, once in the morning, and once at night. You would think after one week, something would have grown but barely nothing. Last summer I was on Follistim which seemed to be working okay and then I switched to Gonal F and was on that for several cycles. I asked to be switched back to the Follistim thinking I would have luck but for some reason, the pen didn\'t seem like it was working so just to be sure that I was getting enough meds, I would dial up again. I don\'t know...maybe I was giving myself double the meds. Who knows...it didn\'t get me anywhere though. Just frustrating...I try to stay positive but it\'s very easy to get down. I swear (I know I shouldn\'t swear) but I hear about a new pregnancy every day and it breaks my heart. Just tonight, I heard about my younger cousin expecting her second child. I\'m happy for people but it just breaks my heart every single time.
deleted_user
deleted_user

My dear ..it is very hard when you hear about new babies..I just knew that my sister in law just got pregnant eventhough it was not planned and she has one young boy who is not even one year old..it is just that we all have beautiful things to be happy about and they are different for every person but i know how it sometimes seems that we are just focused on this particular thing we need..which is sometime a good thing as it pushes us to act and try everything..u r doing that now ..enjoy ur blessings while trying for this miracle and adoption of an infant would be great..I know u said u had thought of it before :)

praying for you