Feeling Guilty Again

Sunday, October 4, 2009 - 12:30 P.M. During the past week, I have spent a lot of time feeling guilty for refusing to go on my vacation during October, just as my brother, Dale, and Dr. Martin had wanted. I realize this sounds somewhat strange, but I do not want to be rude to those people who are actually trying to help me arrange to take this trip. I think that in the e-mail I sent to both Dr. Martin and Dale, I may have been too assertive explaining to them why I would not be taking my trip in October as they had wanted me to do. As I of today, I have not heard from either of them, but I do have an appointment to see Dr. Martin Wednesday afternoon.   My sister is supposed to be flying back from England today. She sent me an e-mail last week, in which she indicated that she had not had a good time while in Italy. Apparently, the friend she went to Italy with made all of the hotel reservations, and she somehow managed to put them in a location that was an hour and a half from everything they wanted to see throughout the week. In her e-mail to me, my sister said that she was very lonely, and missed all of her family very much. She gave me the distinct impression that her traveling days are over for the time being.   I am continuing to have a lot of computer problems, which has been making it extremely hard to do much of anything online. One of the people who works for me, and knows a lot about computers, has tried convincing me that I need to get a new computer. He says that although my present one has a lot of memory in it (74 GB), the computer itself is now outdated and is running out of system power resources. He told me that if I would get a new computer, he could transfer most of my old memory into the new computer for me. He says he is willing to do the work for me, and at a fraction of the cost. At this time, I think that I am going to let him do just that.