Feeling Great/Feeling Terrible

I had such a great Friday - I thought I was cured - hahaha!  Saturday I got up all excited and feeling that I needed to go out, no xanax - big mistake - I went to the grocery store with my husband and bam a panic attack - went to home depot and again panic - went out to lunch, again panic - So, on Sunday I figure I will take a xanax and try to get out again - I did make it to church only a little anxious, then I attempted Target only to feel the fear again - I am not going to give up, I need to keep trying to get out there!   It seems that when I feel great it is short lived - but then again it took me a long time to get where I am with Panic so I am sure it's going to take a long time to get rid of it!  On Friday I really thought I was feeling so good because I took xanax but then I took xanax today and I did not feel great - my dr. wants me to take it daily but I feel that if it is not helping me tremendously I should not take it because I don't want to become addicted to it - my dr. told me not to worry about becoming addicted - it would be better to take it and live a normal life then be where I am.  I want to thank all of my friends who take the time to read my journal and give me the encouragement and suggestions that I need!