Feeling good, but so bad at the same time!

Well, it's been forever and a day since I've been active on here. I've been so very busy with school, work, and kids. The beginning of this year I became self-employed, and as of next week I will be finishing up school as a Pharmacy Technician by being placed in an internship. I'm so thankful for the blessings I've had. I am also very ready to move on into the next phase in life.
As, I'm gearing up for this next phase, that's I've never seen either of my parents accomplish, I'm so very nervous and have so many questions which will go unanswered.
Just as I thought I was getting good at hiding my pain due to not having any parents, my child out of nowhere in the department store says,"Mom, I wish you had a mom and a dad". I almost broke down right then and there. Pain is something I'm good at hiding, I wasn't sure what do or say. All I could say is, "Yeah me too". I've never talked to my son about my deceased parents since he's only 5. It definitely threw me for a loop and I just hope it gets better. I was feeling so good, and I'm just really kind of down now! I pray daily for positive people, to be sent into my life, and I will continue to do so.