Feeling Good

Went to my brothers wedding this weekend it was a wonderful wedding and family hadn't seen me since before my surgery and they were all shocked.  I am  still trying to hit the 100 mark and I seem to be going up and down between 2-4 lbs.  I know that everyone is different but his is rediculous.  I know I should be very happy and trilled at how far I have come but I really wanted to go much farther.  I feel like I am struggling just like if I didn't have the surgery.  I guess this is where my age comes in to play and the older you are the slower the wt comes off.  I also hate having to eat more just to keep my sugar on track.  I know my clothes are fitting much better and I had to be fitted for a bra again and now I am a 36F,G depending on the bra style.  I got to wear my first underwire and it was great.  The pants I got for the wedding were and 14-16 but they were the soft material so they stretched.  I have been able to go on the misses side to get tops and you have a better selection.  So I guess I should just be happy with how far I have come and stop stressing.  I look at myself in the mirror and I can see a difference my top is very small and it looks like it just fell to the bottom so now I really look like a pear shape.  My skin is hanging every where and starting to mess with my head.  It looks gross and lets not get started on the boobs being very gone and the fact that you can fold them in half.  I must be getting ready for my cycle because I am very  moody again.  Sometimes I feel like I am on my cycle all the time lately.  I need to get focused and back on a routine of exercising.