Feeling funky, but not in a good way.

Today is my birthday.  Yay! 32 years old and childless.  I am in such a funk.  My husband keeps asking me if I want to do something, but I would rather sit in my chair and watch Roseanne on Netflix. (How sad is that?)  I have been extremely emotional the past few days.  I sobbed for 20 minutes while watching America's Funniest Home Videos a few days ago.  
My BETA is on Wednesday morning.  I am so anxious about the results.  I'm trying to remain positive, but it's hard.  I've Googled "hpt after ivf" at least twice. (As if the results would have changed.)  I know I need to wait.  Even if I did test, the results may not be accurate, but it's tempting.