Feeling Fine
I go to see my psychologist on Friday-not sure what she can do for me that no one else has come up with before.
I need to understand for myself the roots of my depression/mania and develop strategies to avoid those states in future.
Ist major depression with Stephen Lui-couldn't fight or flight. Next episode of prolonged disorderwith Gavin-not depression but schitzophrenia-thinking the world was all about me...Then Ok for years till with Bryan....He denies it was being with him gave me depression, but I am sure it was. Same problem of no way out. We used to fight terribly....and I had nowhere else to go-cos afraid of leaving him in the lurch.
But this would not explain on-going depression over last 18 months-or why I am suddenly feeling well for 31 days....Prozac + feeling closer to Ivan + dream trip + summer weather.....
All help.
And for the future I need to have plans in mind to counter going down.
Nxt thing Jow wants me to list things I want to see/do on my route across America.
Will do now.
keep smiling
I need to understand for myself the roots of my depression/mania and develop strategies to avoid those states in future.
Ist major depression with Stephen Lui-couldn't fight or flight. Next episode of prolonged disorderwith Gavin-not depression but schitzophrenia-thinking the world was all about me...Then Ok for years till with Bryan....He denies it was being with him gave me depression, but I am sure it was. Same problem of no way out. We used to fight terribly....and I had nowhere else to go-cos afraid of leaving him in the lurch.
But this would not explain on-going depression over last 18 months-or why I am suddenly feeling well for 31 days....Prozac + feeling closer to Ivan + dream trip + summer weather.....
All help.
And for the future I need to have plans in mind to counter going down.
Nxt thing Jow wants me to list things I want to see/do on my route across America.
Will do now.
keep smiling
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