Feeling emotional

hi I been dealing with a lot of things in my life but now I am in a point of life where I really don't care about anything anymore I do things but i really don't care to do anything. I been having problems at my job where I no longer wanted to be there and it all started when my boyfriend that I been with him for 1 1/2 years he didn't do anything special for my birthday he made the commute to see me the day off but didn't gave me nothing or took me out or anything I feel like the intention ma that counts but he never apologized. Today his friend proposed to his girl on her birthday and it made me super emotional because i see that couples that he tried to make it special and I went on my boyfriends phone and he was posting that I was jealous when I really wasn't I was upset at the fact he didn't even wanted or did anything for my birthday knowing that I never had a good one before am I wrong for feeling like this ?