feeling down. cuz the time with my mentor friend wasn't like i had hoped.

ok i got my hopes up again when i was with my mentor friend. i was thinking about things after i left her today and i think the reason why i keep getting my hopes broken when i am with her is because i am longing for a certain type of close friendship that she is not able and not wanting in the friendship i have with her, that is my guess anyway because somethings that she has said to me don't add up to her actions. and i think actions are much more important than words. so im feeling down cuz of that fact that it seems like i love her more than she loves me sometimes but maybe she just loves me differently. i don't even know anymore, i wish i could find the type of friendship that i need so much!