Feeling disgusted and sad
Very disappointed that I gambled again....and lost. This time of year is so difficult - my Dad passed away 12/22 - will be 13 years. The weather has been horrible. My business is slow - I think that's the biggest trigger. When I'm busy I don't think as much about gambling. I didn't gamble the whole month of November and was starting to feel good. This is the first time I've written down my thoughts. Does anyone else see this???
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Hey Bernie,
I suppose first off, friends see your journals, not anyone and everyone. You can also keep journals private- there\'s a box to click when you write.
Sorry to hear you\'ve fallen off the wagon, but glad you\'re back here. Definitely, any stresses are triggers or potential triggers. I suppose the best advice is to recognize that and be on guard. The holiday season is pretty emotional for everyone and having family deaths during the time is particularly bad. My Mom died January 2nd, incidentally. I\'m particularly on watch this year as I\'ve just passed my 1 year mark and, as implied, I\'m a bit more emotional this time of year too. Just got to keep busy. If work isn\'t, find another outlet or find something to revitalize your business during the downtime to give it a boost.
Hang in there, you\'re back and in a good place.
Jay