feeling disgusted
Im feeling really disgusted today. I woke up this morning with my husband on my mind. just for some reason started thinking about all the good times and looking though all the texts that we sent back and forth and just wondering how did we get to this point. For some reason I decided I would text him that I missed him. I waited for several hours and no response. I just couldn't take it so I called him and of course he didn't answer. I was devastated but I knew he wouldn't answer, finally I got a text and it says there is nothing else to talk to about. so I called him again and he was so cold. he just plainly laid it out that he is done and telling me all the things I've done and that he hated coming home. what the hell. if he hated coming home and things were so bad why the hell didn't he say anything. he never takes responsibility for anything he does. I hate that I reached out to him especially begging him to come over and give us another chance. I have so many mixed emotions. I am so hurt because I feel like I don't even know this person. how the hell can he just give up on us. I just lost it and started screaming. I hate doing this in front of my daughter. I'm just so tired of being sick and tired. how can he just treat me like I never meant anything to him. I am so scared of starting over and doing things on my own. I hate this so much that I don't know what to do. I still love him so much.
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It\'s the most difficult thing when someone does a 180 and you feel blindsided. It\'s like you said. You don\'t know who that person is anymore. Hang in there. Be happy he\'s not leading you on. (Hugs)
I can really relate to this post today. I\'ve been thinking about the good times with my husband for the past few days and I just can\'t seem to stop crying. I wonder if they all read from the same book of bull. My husband told me that he hated coming home too. He also didn\'t say anything. I can\'t understand how I ended up married to a stranger. I\'ve taken the opposite approach from you though. I can\'t scream at him because I can\'t bring myself to talk to him. Don\'t get me wrong. He doesn\'t want to talk about anything related to our relationship. He wants to talk about logistics. A few weeks ago he told me he was going to call me to \"chat\" and he never did. I\'ve been unable to deal with the situation since then. I felt a slight thaw and then he closed himself off again. I want him to change his mind so badly that it\'s hard to imagine how I\'m ever going to move on.