feeling depressed.wishing i was normal.

just feeling depressed. it always seems to follow me where ever i go. and what ever i do i can't get rid of it. im really worried i messed things up with her even though i know she had fun with me on the road trip im just afraid that she is really getting sick of me now and its just adding to my depression. i feel like i tried to talk to her to much. i am worried that this messed things up. i hate how i always do this. i always mess things up with people. i just really hate myself right now. i just want to be normal.