Feeling completely alone

Well things are crazy I work 9am to 2 than 3-midnight daily.. my husband watches our daughter during the day and I feel like I'm missing out on everything.. Well the other day he decides he wants to drive to florida by himself to go see his family he decides to tell me that he's leave Sunday night on Sat so that left me one day to find someone to watch Angelica.. So i had to turn to my Mother who I don't get alone with because of my childhood filled with constant yelling and over protective Mothering.. well she did ok today i guess but its still annoying that he chose now to go instead of when we can both go with the baby.. my theory he's going to see his German Mistress who according to FB has since moved to Germany hoping he would eventually move there with her and their supposed children if you've been reading my journals if not your prob lost on the situation.. so right now Angelica is sound asleep and her Father is on his way to Florida.. chances are I'm gonna have to quit my day job to take care of her since Her father stats school sept 2nd and can't watch her ne more.. Talk about confusing he says he wants a divorce even filed and last night when he left he asked me if i was gonna give him a hug and kiss goodbye hello confusion... thanks for letting me vent