Feeling bleh

Why do we love the ones that are not worth it? Why do we allow them to hurt us? I have loved and loved and I am trying so hard everyday to accept that its been 14 months going on 15 and you are gone, that you have another love while I have this amazing guy yet I feel empty at times and I miss you.

I cant wait for the day that I can wake up or go to sleep or actually enjoy being out having a good time and not have you cross my mind.