feeling blue

This weekend was truly a struggle!! My period was 2 days late and I literally got no sleep last night becuase of the what ifs!! So this morning, no period but I just know that nothings  happened.  Cervix doesn't feel any different and I saw a small pink spotting.  I was praying that maybe GOd would just allow me to get pregnant on my own!! I woke up a 6:00am feeling horrible and upset.  What if this IUI doesnt work? I dont have a whole lot of money to pay for continous treatment.  I FEEL SOO AGGRAVATED!!!! UHHHHHH!!! I need some big encouragement please, because I am sick and tired of telling my family becuase they don;t get even a portion of what it is I feel going through this!! Its a waste of time telling them anything!! I  need to get this frustratiion out and I need to talk to someone who GETS what I feel!!