Feeling Blue
It is another difficult weekend! What to do with myself? Going to be with my sister tonight, we'll go to dinner and then to a church service. Don't have any plans for tomorrow. My sons are busy with their plans which is good.
Truth is I don't have the motivation or energy to do much of anything anyway. Can't seem to get out of this slump. Live is just plain boring right now. I miss my dear husband so much. We didn't do much on New Years, but we did it together!
Life is completely different, I feel as though I have been dropped into a world I don't know and I will never adjust to.
I pray that I will gain insight in the new year to work through what is so painful right now.
Truth is I don't have the motivation or energy to do much of anything anyway. Can't seem to get out of this slump. Live is just plain boring right now. I miss my dear husband so much. We didn't do much on New Years, but we did it together!
Life is completely different, I feel as though I have been dropped into a world I don't know and I will never adjust to.
I pray that I will gain insight in the new year to work through what is so painful right now.
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It WILL get better - just ever so gradually. I had no interest or motivation for several months to continue things I once enjoyed. Could not concentrate enough to read; didn\'t plant flowers outside that first spring/summer. This past yr. I did want flowers again - and was thankful. One article I read by a widow said: \"I have plenty of people to do things with; I just have no one to do nothing with.\" That really expressed my feelings. Just having his presence in his chair, snoozing through a football game or whatever, while I read nearby - this was very comforting. The empty house is a presence in all our lives; however, some people have adult, unemployed children in their houses, plus their spouses & kids; I\'ll take empty! You are still early in the grieving process; I know you will feel better as time goes by. I think we will always have a \"hole\" in our hearts & lives after losing our husbands, but I feel much better emotionally now . May 2011 bring you joy and peace.
Doye
Lindanne, I\'m not sure that I will ever adjust ether. I have zilch ambition or motivation. I need to empty my mother\'s house & that hurts. Then I start on ours. Today our King turned 11. I spoiled him rotten. I need to go add some wood to the fire & kick up the pellet stove. I hope that you have a good night. Love ya, Val