feeling awful today

I feel so sad today,ive got christmas over with,ok i cried through most of it but i thought i would feel more normal now but no.A dear friend of mine just had a massive fight with her stbx and i was witness to him hitting her to the ground. I am so angry right now.It makes me glad to be alone with my children.Dont know how my stbxs christmas went and i know i shouldnt really care but im feeling so sorry for myself.I cant wait for the new year as i keep telling myself its going to be my year,well it cant be any worse than this year.LOL.