feeling alone

i hope i can get through this. i just hate how im having trouble losing weight. and im having trouble making friends here. i really hate it, cuz im just so sick of being alone and not having alot to do or anyone to hangout with, im trying so hard to lose weight because then maybe when i go out people will want to be friends with me. since ill look better because ill be thinner. i hope losing weight will work for making friends because i can't think of what else to do since everything i have tryed hasnt worked so i really hope that if i can get thin than people will want to be with me more and make more time for me and that new people will want to get to know me. cuz all the friends i had haven't made anytime for me at all. im always in the bottom of the list and i am so sick of it. i just want a friend i can be close with and for that friend to have time for me and to put forth the same amount of energy i am putting in. because it seems like i am always doing more of that. and it hurts so much.