Feeling a LOT Better, and a LOT Stronger

The Last Entry I wrote in here I was having a BAD Day, and I was feeling Very Mixed Up. But, since then I've stopped Myself... sat back.. and I've thought Long and Hard on WHY My Thinking was so Chaotic. I've realized One thing at least, and that is this.... I was making the HUGE Mistake of ALLOWING My EXBF to STILL ABUSE ME !!!!! True, He wasn't here so He wasn't Physically Abusing Me, BUT He KNEW He was Toying with My Mind so MUCH that it was basically ABUSE ! I allowed Him to " suck me back into his LIES " so much that I had actually let my guard down enough that He was able to " TOY " with Me ! I would Listen to Him on the Phone, and ACTUALLY BELIEVE the Things He was saying ! BIG MISTAKE !!!! I WILL NEVER MAKE THAT MISTAKE AGAIN ! MY EXBF is a LIAR, AND ALWAYS WILL BE A HABITUAL LIAR !The Funny Thing is I ALMOST have HIM to Thank for Waking Me UP to this FACT !( But, don't worry... I'm NOT about to Call Him to ' Thank ' Him ! )The LAST Phone Conversation I had with My EXBF, at the END of the Conversation, He BLURTED OUT the TRUTH OF THINGS !!!!He ADMITTED to Me that He Had been LYING HIS BUTT OFF to Me lately, and Told Me the REAL TRUTH finally about the Things We had been Talking about !!!! SO.... FOR ME... That tells Me that He's STILL A HUGE LIAR ! To LIE so BOLDLY to Someone You had CLAIMED TO BE A ' FRIEND ' TO, is SO WRONG it's just BEYOND REPREHENSIBLE !!!!! BEYOND DESPICABLE !!!!!So NOW... I've had My " WAKE UP CALL ", I know that there is NO WAY to be even JUST FRIENDS with My EXBF ! You CAN'T be FRIENDS with Someone that You CAN NEVER TRUST !!!! SO WHEREVER YOU ARE... WHOEVER YOU'RE WITH.... " THANK YOU RAY ! YOU FINALLY FREED ME, WHETHER YOU KNOW IT OR NOT. "I realize that in general MOST People keep Their Exes completely anonymous, but I hope Everyone will forgive Me for mentioning His First Name.... because Frankly right now I don't Care keeping it Secret... IF Anything, I almost want to Shout OUT to Everyone Online WHO HE IS, AND TO BE WARY OF HIM IF THEY SEE HIM ONLINE ! Because I'm SURE that even though He's supposedly living with a New GF, He'll STILL be Chatting UP and FLIRTING BIG TIME with LOTS OF WOMEN ONLINE !!!! But, I WON'T do that, because THEN I'd be resorting to Something that HE WOULD PROBABLY DO.... ( as far as Tellling Everyone I can ONLINE who He is, and what Kind of Person He is ! )It's Funny to Me how Someone SO CRUEL, and SO ABUSIVE, can accidently do Something that ends up RELEASING the ONE that They abused from Their Control ! Well... So Where does that Leave Me NOW ??? I'll tell You.I'M NEVER GOING TO E-MAIL MY EXBF AGAIN... AND I'M NEVER GOING TO TALK TO HIM ON THE PHONE AGAIN ! I know FOR SURE now that I can NEVER BE FRIENDS with My EXBF ! So I'm NOT GOING TO TRY TO BE HIS FRIEND EVER AGAIN ! PLUS.... Besides, all of that... I Have a NEW Boyfriend NOW anyways ! YAY !!!! My NEW Boyfriend is a VERY Wonderful Man ! He's Kind, Caring, Compassionate, Understanding, Patient, Generous, Loving, Romantic, and Passionate. He's EVERYTHING that RAY WAS NOT !!!!! Of Course, like ANYONE - since NOONE is Perfect, there are a couple of Small Things about My NEW Boyfriend that get on My Nerves a bit. BUT in Comparison to RAY, they're NOTHING !!!! IF in Order to have a Man in My Life that's ALL of those GOOD THINGS I mentioned, means that I have to Accept a Few Minor annoying Small Things, then SO BE IT ! To LOVE Someone Truly.... I've Always felt that it means to ACCEPT Them COMPLETELY.... To ACCEPT THE GOOD AND THE BAD ! The Big Question I think is... " Can You LIVE with the ' Bad Things ' ? "That's Something I'll have to ASK MYSELF. I'm pretty sure so far that I'll be able to Live with those FEW ' Bad Things ', because I've Looked ALL of My LIFE so Far for a Man that Truly has ALL OF THOSE GOOD THINGS IN HIM..... and MY NEW BOYFRIEND TRULY HAS ALL OF THOSE GOOD THINGS IN HIM ! I Feel that I'm TRULY BLESSED to have My NEW BOYFRIEND IN MY LIFE NOW ! I'M VERY HAPPY WITH HIM !