Feeling a little anxiety

I feel like I'm always in the that never-ending mode to try to make my life seem better.  Probably a big part of this healing process so have to learn to just go through it and accept it.  In my never ending search for the "one", I went on a date last night.  Someone that I met online and has been basically "bugging" me to get together for a drink.  My gut was telling me no but my brain was saying get out there!  It's the only way you are going to find out.  So I went with much hesitation.  Didn't look/feel that great about myself either but I went.  Better looking than his picture but a little strange man I have to say.  Asked a lot of questions about my dating experiences which makes me a little uncomfortable but I answered them nonetheless.  I have a sneaking suspision that he is still married....I ended the date early and off home.  The difference this time is that I didn't really cry in the car like I usually do so I was glad about that.  I felt a little down but that was ok....I hope that he doesn't call.....