Feeling a bit normal today
Got up this am and felt halfway normal.First time I felt this way in a long time I'm crossing my fingers I'll have another good day today.Up pretty late can't sleep I watched a little tv.Went to the cematary to say good-bye to Justin's headstone it's breaking my heart or in other words making it ache much more painfully.I never thought I would lose Justin he was my hero but I have my family and Braden to help me walk the path back to maybe happiness.I sometimes don't think I 'll ever see myself fully happy.But I'm trying real hard.Today wasn't quite as humid didn't rain here.We had a baby shower here for Ashli's best friend Laura she's due August 29 it's a girl her name will be Danielle Nicole.She's so tall she doesn't look 8 months along.I only have 2 and a half weeks left to babysit baby Emily her mom got a day position at the hosiptal she asks if I would like to keep watching her but the hours didn't fit in with my plans (as tho I have any)6:30am-4:00pm.She already has a sitter her Aunt is going to do it half price then what I was going to charge.Today is pool day unless it rains going with Rebecca's best friend's mom she's a woot.She can always tell when I'm having a bad day.She's so funny.It will be fun.Better go to bed Everyone take care and love to all.Vicki
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Glad your feeling Ok!!I to wonder if I\'ll ever feel any joy about anything. hope she has that baby on the 29th that\'s my birthday.(shh I\'ll be 40) peace to you Tammy
1/2 way normal is good, Vicki. I believe the definition of \"normal\" has forever changed for us and if we expect to be who we were before our tragedies than we are making our journey so much harder. So, if we redefine normal and have a day when we are 1/2 way there.....that\'s great. I hope you have a bright, sunny day and can share a few laughs with your friend today. *Hug* Adrianne
Let those okay days happen...let them happen ANY day that they come...this is the baby steps that we talk about. There may be a shadow over your life...but the sun can still shine. Good work...love and hugs...Karen
I hope your good feeling continues. At some point in time you begin to have more good days than bad, and for now that is the best I can hope for, for me, for you, for all of us. Hugs your way, my friend. Enjoy the good feeling.
Hoping that \" new\" good feeling continues. Hugs, Inga