Feeling Bad

Hello everyone. I feel bad because I'm at work and I have been avoiding my coworker who is pregnant. We were pregnant together she was only exactly one month ahead of me. We use to talk to each other about our pregnancies. I feel bad because she reminds me of how big I am suppose to be. I dont like feeling this way but I cant help it. Also all of my other friends and coworkers are gathered at her desk and they are talking about her pregnancy. I am happy for her it just reminds me of how far along Im suppose to be and Im not. This truly hurts. I thought I was getting better but I feel like all of the emotions I was feeling when I first lost my baby boy are coming back and I am feeling so lonely. Oh Gosh. I just want my baby back. I hate feeling this way.