feelin crazy

Brief history, I had just gotten over a year of taking xanax (which I am still free of, Yay!), adopted at birth (never knew anything about them), birth father found me Oct 2010... worked at bank and country club, not close to either adoptive parents due to their own instability. Sister lives in huge mansion with her husband and three kids... anyway... Since then, I have left the bank (February), my birth father has offered to help set me up in a small beach condo (literally 20 steps from the ocean) in San Diego he owns and work for him doing real estate. He has paid for my RE online courses (half way done) and I am feeling more motivated about my future than I have in a very, very long time. He actually started his company in 1986 when I was born while he was trying to convince my birth mother (who I met, along with two new uncles and a half sister, on my birthday Jan 3, and is such a great person!) he could provide a stable life for her and me. Anyway! I am moving all of my things to San Diego next Friday. I have been seeing Dex, my unstable, semi alcoholic ex-boyfriend very often again, and he is driving with me to SD to make sure I get there... no one else could take that much time off of work. And I kind of just wanted him too. Ugh! I am extremely excited and have thought about it for a long time, but something in me feels like I am going to fail. My family here is taking the whole situation and me leaving extremely personally, but other than my brother in law and sister, who would help me and then hold it over my head forever, no one has really cared about my future. It feels nice to have my birth father, James, be so supportive in my success. My question is, am I being impulsive or crazy? or selfish? I just want to establish myself somewhere, and I think I will feel a freedom leaving Dallas, even if it is just for a few years, and I feel like there is no better time. Also, I feel excited about starting a new career and having a successful mentor in James. I really appreciate any response
 
off to do yoga, hopefully this calms my mind and nerves!!!