Feel like crying and puking my guts out
We went from a planned family vacation to Florida to divorce cause things were not working out, then to just him and the kids going to FL but I was still getting to see him, to him just coming back and spending time with the kids and still seeing each others face to now him wanting to fly the kids to meet him and his family and not seeing each other at all. When he told me my stomach just turn and I just wanted to puke, I knew that was a possibility but it becoming a reality hurts more than I thought. I just want to cry and cry, knowing that your marriage is over and facing the reality of it is so overwhelming, knowing that I won't see his face even though I know is over is painful - wasn't expecting it for it to hurt this much - haven't seen him in 7 months, by the time he see the kids it would be 10 months and by the time he finally comes back from Afghanistan it would be a yr without seeing each other - he has moved on with his life and even though I'm doing everything to be able to move on I feel stuck!!!!!! Stuck to this emotions, stuck like a leech and I can't let go when I know I need to..........so frustrated right now!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I\'m so upset with myself - short conversation that turn my day upside down - I just want this to be over with, I don\'t want to feel anymore, I want this feelings to stop, I just want to forget and leave everything behind, I just want to hate him and I can\'t - damn it!!! I wish I could say f.... you!!!!!!!!! I just don\'t know anymore, I\'m just upset, mad, sad, wanting to cry and scream at the same time. Damn it, damn it, damn it damn him a thousand times!!!
I hear you, I\'m feeling just like you. Can\'t seem to let go of my STBX wife, I still love her even after all of the sh.. things she did to me. I still think sometimes that my life will be back to how it was before, and that she will love me again and that my wife, kids and I will be all together again, nad then the alarm clock sounds and it\'s back to reality. For me its been 07 montyhs since my nightmare began and there\'s not a day that goes ny that I don\'t miss my old life. I can only tell you that I know the feeling and I only wish I could tell you how to feel better, but I can\'t, trust me, I look for the answer everyday, but let\'s keep going,
sorry you are feeling this way! wish i was in a better place to give you advice to help you through, but i am thinking of you!
are either of you going to fight to save your marriages!!! You can\'t sit back and let them fall apart, you should try to fight for who you love!!!
I am sooo sorry...you deserve sooo much better...I hope in time your pain will ease..I know how you feel and it sucks but sending well wishes for brighter days
Thanks you guys for your support!!!!! It just felt like a slap in the face and it really hurt. It helps to know that I\'m not crazy for feeling this way.
(((HUGS)))