FED UP !

Okay... this is going to be My SHORTEST ENTRY EVER.... LOL The Reason for that is because I just finished a VERY LONG ENTRY, and My damn computer LOST IT when I clicked on SAVE JOURNAL ENTRY !!!! UGH !!! Oh well... at least, simply writing everything I did helped Me to let it out for awhile.  In a Nutshell.... I'm SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING.... meaning EVERYTHING involved with dealing with My BF Ray !   I'm tired of His LIES, and His YELLING, and His ABUSE ! I know what I need to, and I'm working on it... I am. I'm just not quite to that Point YET.I joined this Web Site to get Emotional Support, and Understanding, concerning what I'm going through, and I definitely got ALL of that, and MORE ! I'm Very Grateful to ALL of My Friends on here, and to this Web Site. It helps a LOT to have somewhere to turn to talk about what I'm dealing with.I'm so sick of Him treating Me like I'm some sort of Child that has to be TOLD WHAT TO DO, AND WHEN TO DO IT.... AND treating Me like I'm His PUNCHING BAG whenever Something or even Someone Else, has Upset Him ! Destroying Things, Threatening Me, and Actually Hurting Me, has ALL become WAY TOO COMMON with Him ! He's even BEYOND the Point of even trying to say " I'm Sorry " ! He doesn't bother saying that... INSTEAD He's Much MORE likely to start EXPLAINING TO ME why He did what He did... AS IF He truly feels He was JUSTIFIED ! I've TOLD HIM that He has NO RIGHT to TREAT ME the Way that He does.... NO RIGHT ! But I DOUBT that it's ever sunk in, or ever will for that matter. Right now He's OUT for a " Walk ".... of course He took His CELL PHONE, and it BEEPED as SOON as He turned it on to let Him know that He had Messages !.... Who Knows where He REALLY IS right now ? I don't know... and I don't know if I even care, because I'm just hoping to have another Hour or Two of PEACE without Him here, before He gets back. AFTER this Month.... after I've made sure the Bills have been Paid, then We'll see what the Future holds. I'm not sure right now what I'm doing, IF Anything... but One Thing's for SURE... I'M SICK OF IT ! Besides... this is MY APARTMENT.. IN MY NAME.. NOT HIS... so at least, it's Not as if I'd have to find Another Place to Stay... HE WOULD !