FEB 09

WELL FEB IS HERE ALREADY.  WHERE DOES THE TIME GO?? I AM STILL SORE FROM THE SURGERY AND THE HEALING SEEMS TO BE GOING SLOW. I AM TIRED OF THE COLD HERE. MINUS 10 AGAIN THIS AM.  OUR BUSINESS IS VERY SLOW-STOPPED NO JOBS RIGHT NOW. WE LAID OFF OUR CREW MEMBERS. NEED TO MAKE SOME $$ AS THE BILLS ARE PILING UP. WE ARE PRAYING FOR SOMETHING TO GIVE. WE ARE BOTH CONSIDERING GETTING JOBS UNTIL THE CONSTRUCTION BUSINESS GETS ROLLING AGAIN. WE ARE TRYING TO STAY STRONG. MY FAITH IN JESUS REALLY HELPS. I KNOW HE WILL PROVIDE. BUT IN THE MEANTIME I HATE THE STRUGGLE. I STILL HAVE ANXIETY STRUGGLES AND SOME DEPRESSION ALTHOUGH THE SUICIDLE THOUGHTS ARE LESS FREQUENT AND NOT AS INTENSE. THIS IS GOOD! WELL THATS ALL FOR NOW. GOTTA DO SOME ERRANDS. I MISS MY WIFE WHO IS GONE TO MY MOTHERS FOR A WEEK TO HELP OUT. THEY LIVE IN ARKANSAS WHERE THEY HAD ALL THE ICE. LOTS OF DAMAGE TO TREES ETC.GOD BLESS ALL WHO STRUGGLE TODAY!