Feb 7 2010

Today has been better.  I did fall asleep last night not too long after writing last night's entry.  I've been up since shortly after 8am this morning.  I stayed away from the computer most of the day again except for a few email and facebook checks.  I finished reading the book I started yesterday.  I surprised my roommate and had the dishes done before she got home from church.  I did my workout, had my shower, and went across the road to Tim's to meet someone who wanted to buy something I was selling (and they did!) so treated myself to a little something at Tim's and came home.  The rest of the money will go to necessities...but it's nice to have a treat now and again.  Also, a few days ago something that I had posted for my parents sold so they have a bit of money for me but I told them to put it towards what I owe them for the credit card debt.  It's going to take me a month or two to figure out all my bills and finances again before I am comfortable writing the checks...I can do it now but if they are willing to take the cash, which they are, then it is a little less strain right now.   Planning to call around to some dentists tomorrow.  I know I need to go and mom is insisting I make an appointment for at least a cleaning and check-up.  I don't really want to go back to the Dental School...I just would rather get it done and over with.  It's hard sitting around for 3 hours while waiting for them to do everything and get everything approved at the school...and then having to go back.  I also want to try to make an appointment for a massage.  My muscles are still sore and I think a good massage would feel amazing...though I have to say...I think the workouts I'm doing with the Wii are helping a little.  Yes my muscles hurt but it's starting to be a different hurt...but still I think a massage would be a nice treat.   Anyway...not even 10pm yet here and I'm really getting sleepy.  I'm going to go get ready for bed and am considering leaving the computer in the living room tonight.  Not sure on that one yet.  I know it's better too...but it does help keep me distracted if I am struggling with anxiety and thoughts/urges.  So far though today has been quite good in comparrison with the last few days.