Fear
There is the fear inside me. It is trying to consume me. It is like a flame that sometimes falters then in a moment it roars to life. Fire that licks stiffled air surrounding it. It feeds,and grows,and consumes me, my thoughts, my mind. I must be responsible for my children. I alone. The one who was once my love has gone to another. Left with mocking cruel and wicked ways. He intwines with his serpentress and they are eager to consume fear and sadness. For that is their substance, that fuels the fire. To give them more of what they desire. Let me breath,God,let me feel. The comfort of protection, and let it be real.I need not this fear that devours me inside. What i need is courage, to move fear aside.
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Today I was so hyper. I was sweating and cleaning things,left and right. I guess I had anxiety. This is crazy. I pray this ends.
I have got to pull it together. I dont want to go out anymore. I just stay in the house. I go out when I have to. Dang, divorce sucks.
I am so sorry and i know that this is hard right now but it can only get better from here. i pray for you and your children and please know that eventhough we don\'t know each other personally, i pray for you all and you are on my heart. be strong and pray hard, god will pull you thru this. keep busy and focus on your children and if you need to cry, do it! crying is weakness leaving the body. just think that everytime you cry you lose a little more weakness and are building up your strength, until one day you won\'t need to cry anymore. be strong my sister, you will get thru this and remember that your babies need you. love ya-jae
You are courages! Like the lion in the Wizard of Oz. You already have it.