Father's Day

Today is Father's day and it is a hard one.  We went out to the cemetery yesterday and it was so hard to read Lance's name on the head stone and thinking he should be the one looking at mine.  It has almost been ten months now and at times it is still real hard.  Our group session, once a week. has been a big help but there are times that it still seems like it is a bad dream.  I have a wonderful daugher and wife who I love very much and five grandkids, but there are still times I wish I were dead.  Sometimes like is just the pitts.