father came

Today I feel upset when I woke up.I feel that there is nothing good in this world.I just want to get drunk.I do not look forward to my father' coming.At 2 I went to get a massage.I feel good now.My suffering will comes back a fews days later.I am just waiting for night time to pick up my father.I came back from the dinner.I feel more upset and depress.i hope i can just go to sleep.