Family Friend Heart to Heart

There's a family friend who I've spoken with about all of this since the start of coming out and she has been so supportive. She is also friends with my Mom so I haven't seen her in a little while because all their get togethers include my mom. I went over her house for tea and so we could talk. I told her of my moms texts to me and the lovely email I received as well. There were things said by my mom that I will never forget... Just talking to her about it and I completely lost it. She came around the other aide of the table and just held me as I cried. I finally had that good vey that had been building for some time now. She's been like another mom to me so I envisioned it was my mom actually hugging me, which made me cry even more. I miss my mom so much, my sister and my dad. My sister still hasn't responded to me and I can only speak to my dad while he's at work. The family friend cried with me and she said maybe respond to your moms texts with a simple I love you and miss my mom. I did so and she responding saying she loved me too and missed her daughter. It's so hard to believe that when I'm still here, alive, but she wants nothing to do with me because of my "decision"? This is not my decision! It's who I am! She can't accept that and I hope that with time she will be able to. At this point I don't even want to see her nor do I want to keep trying if she's going to send me texts and emails saying how I'm in a downward spiral, broken, insecure and don't know who I am anymore! I know my dad wants me to go to our big thanksgiving dinner but I honestly don't know if I can go....