family
today was abad day for me got a nasty text from my sister who i havent seen or heard from since easter time ond only cause i told people on facebook about my surgery it got to the point maybe i shouldnt even turn my computer on all i wanted to do was crawl into to my bed and stay there and never come out of it but i thought writting down my feelings might help me boy family can suck big time but maybe i dont deserve to have family,well thats what it feels likes but am glad i have my other family i can talk too(amputees) cause they dodnt judge me and i dont think i am a bad person just looking for support cause it can get real lonely and very hard without any support from noboby ireally feel like crying and not gettig out of bed for a very long time if ever but i have to look after my two boys whom i love with all of my heart damm wish i had not lost my leg i really hate myself for that to the stage sometimes i wish i was dead what a sad sack i am but it does feel alittle bit better writtig it down maybe there is hope for me yet just got to shake this feeling of doom
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Lynne
I wish there was some way I could take away all the hurt from your life. Sometimes family members say things they might not mean. I sure hope that\'s the case. Hon, you\'re hurting right now, but don\'t dwell on the bad things that life throws at you. You\'re worth more than silver and gold to those two boys, and they need you. You hang in there, you hear? And remember that you\'ve got people here who care for you. I\'m sending you a big Texas-sized hug . Hope you feel better soon.
Gordon
Lynne, Gordon could not of said it better. I feel some times its better to not listen to family that uses word that hurt. When i was in business i will never forget the picture that I but on the front wall of a little boy crying under that picture it said nver usa words that hurt . That was my lessen and than I never did . Your a better person forget that and move on. Take care of the boys
Im sorry to hear you had such a bad day.Dont let others bring you down.You are stronger than you realize.You have already made it through so much already.Take care of yourself and try to stay positive.Remember there are people on this site that really care.
Family can be your greatest asset or your worest nightmare. If I was you I would focus on your two boys and any other family thats respect you as the good person you are. Don\'t let anybody else that don\'t show you respect get you down because that what they want from you to make them self feel better mostly because they see how strong you are and they wish they could be so strong as you are, so anyway they can bring you down they will.
Dennis